I get disappointed and a little angry when you talk about unhappy you are. I don't regret anything, but wish I did things differently in some situations. Most of the time, movies make me sad. I feel like I'm a completely different person than I was in high school. I would prefer to go on a vacation with my family rather than my friends. I'm afraid to fall in love. I have very unrealistic expectations for my life. Although I know they're unrealistic, I still hope they come true. Sometimes my dreams really scare me and make me wonder if there is something wrong with me. I want to teach people. Fall is my favorite season, but it makes me very sad. I hate being rushed. I'm no good at communicating. The other day, I bought the prettiest dress ever. It (and my mom) is motivating me to get through the next week. I hate school. I wish life was easier. I never want to live far away from my sisters. Sometimes I wonder what other people think about me. I try not to focus on it, though. I used to be extremely jealous of my sister. Now, we get along so well because we're different. I feel guilty. I don't think I'm any good at relationships. I wish I had told you how I felt when you felt the same. Now, I think you're going to leave and never know. I want another tattoo. My dad is and always has been my hero, despite his flaws. I can't wait to live on my own, but I'm afraid that I'm going to be lonely. My biggest fear is forgetting. I hate being lied to. I really can't stand drama. I used to want to get pregnant because I thought it would make life easier. I understand how ridiculous that is. I miss my old house. I really don't like someone who I call one of my "best friends." I don't think I could live without all of my best friends from home. A few nights ago, I slept in a t-shirt and shorts, with a sweatshirt and sweatpants over them. To me, that just reitterates the fact that I'm not who I used to be. I'm jealous of the people who are leaving, but I feel like they are giving up. I think my priorities are skewed. I'm proud of myself. I get along better with guys than girls. I get along much better with people who are older than me. I think I grew up too fast. I don't regret anything that I did in high school. If I went back, I would do it all the same.

I have no secrets-- nothing that no one else know.