I should have listened to my instincts. That's what mom always says. She's right... and I should, too.

I should have known from the beginning. Then, after that,  it couldn't have been more clear. and I still didn't listen.

And now I feel this pit in my stomach every time I think about it. because something that was bound to happen eventually happened.

Life really is crazy.

I've decided to play the waiting game. The game that I thought I was playing for the past year, but have recently come to realize I wasn't playing at all.

Now I am because I deserve the best and I am willing to wait.

And maybe if nothing comes along, going to South Africa will be that much easier.

Because everything happens for a reason.