A broken heart cannot break.
So it must resort to ache.

heartache.

Stop.

Rewind. to somewhere around 11 months ago.


Alright, now play again.
I'm so fucking angry right now.

Alright, so here's how the story goes... listen up 'cause its a good one.

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thousands and thousands of times over.


((You are me and I am you.)) You both complete me.

Just like Robin does,

Just like Robin does,

I like this one...

[my name is]: Heather, Feath, Lippy, Hebber, Beb, Featherooni...
[in the morning I am]: awful. Don't come near me.
[all I need is]: to be surrounded with people that I love. and who love me.
[love is]: not like anything else ever felt.
[I'm afraid of]: there being a scary man waiting for me in my room when I go up at night with no lights on.
[I dream about]: people. Everyone is always in my dreams. But they are such a tease because everything I wish would really happen, happens in my dreams.
-H A V E .Y O U. E V E R . .
[pictured your crush naked?]: Maybe, but I dont really think people are all that attractive when they're completely naked.
[actually seen your crush naked]: Not completely/ not all at the same time.
[fucked]: nope.
[had sex]: no.
[made love]: No. that sounds so cliche
[been in love]: there's a possibility.
[cried when someone died]: a little.
[lied]: I have lied.
-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-
[coke or Pepsi]: pessi!
[flowers or candy]: flowers.
[tall or short]: Too tall for my liking.
-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[what do you notice first?]: eyes, arms, smile.
[last person u slow danced with]: Joe... at prom. :)
[worst question to ask]: How can I make you love me?
-W H O-
[makes you laugh the most?]: Taylor. But I laugh with everyone.
[makes you smile]: Sciac
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: surprisingly, no one. We are far past that.
[do you have a crush on?]: Crushes are overrated.
[has a crush on you?]: I don't wanna talk about that.
[easiest to talk to]: Lauren and Sciacca
-D O. Y O U .E V E R-
[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. you?]: Not anymore
[save aol/aim conversations]: ALL the time! haha and everyone knows it.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: sometimes. But I really enjoy girliness sometimes. :)
[cried because of someone saying something to you]: Yea... a few times, but i specifically remember once when I was little and my daddy said he wasnt doing a good job at being a dad. It killed me.
-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend]: I'm definitely guilty of that on more than one occasion.
[been rejected]: yes.
[rejected someone]: yeah.
[used someone]: Umm... I dont think so.
[been cheated on]: No. I havent ever been with someone to give them a chance to cheat. heh.
[done something you regret]: I'll never regret anything.
-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone]: Taylor! :)
[hugged]: umm... Megan Brown maybe. I really dont remember and that is unacceptable!
[you instant messaged]: Ker
[you laughed with]: Britney and Karlee at track. No! I lied... it was Brooke and Katie when we were drivin around town. haha!
-D O .Y O U-
[color your hair]: highlight on occasion
[ever get off the damn computer]: sure I do.
[habla espanol]: nope.
-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[smoke cigarettes]: I have before, but I think they're gross.
[obsessive]: I don't think so.
[could you live without the computer?]: Sure... it wouldnt be that hard... Amish people do it.
[how many peeps are on your buddylist?]: 196
[what's your favorite food?]: French fries! or rice.
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: cucumber.
[drink alchohol?]: Sometimes.
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: mmm.. love it.
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: Emotional pain... without a doubt.
[trust others way too easily?]: Depends on the situation... if I want to trust them, then there's really no stopping me. Then again, sometimes I can be completely stubborn with trust. Either way, trust is huge with me.
-N U M B E R-
[of times i have had my heart broken? ]: I'm not really sure. Once, if at all.
[of hearts i have broken?] : I don't like to think about that. But I know there has been at least two. :-/
[of boys i have kissed?] : Four.
[girls i have kissed?] : Kissed at all... like a bajillion.
[of continents i have lived in?] : 1
[of drugs taken illegally?] : um...
[of tight friends?] : woah... like... 10ish. Thats a hard question.
[of cd's that i own?] : probably around 80 or 90 but I only listen to about 30 of them.
[of scars on my body?] : "There are now ten."
[of things in my past that i regret?] : one?

I KNOW: that I am selfish.
I WANT: to spend as much time with my sisters as I can this summer.
I HAVE: the best friends and family ever.
I WISH: things worked out differently.
I HATE: hypocrites. If you're going to say something, then at least act that way, too.
I MISS: Columbia. and Christina.
I FEAR: change that results in loss.
I HEAR: John Garret singing "Don't think Twice, its alright" which is actually somewhat comforting but also very sad.
I SEARCH: for me.
I WONDER: what the future holds for me.
I REGRET: I'll never regret anything. Except maybe not telling someone how I felt a long time ago. But I was young and I don't think I knew that i should have. So i guess that's really not a regret.
I LOVE: Beeb and Loo loo. period.
I ACHE: when i'm sore. ouch ouch ouch.
I CARE: so much. Whether i make that known or not.
I ALWAYS: Call Kerry in the morning. (usually right after I wake up which makes for very mumble-y conversations.)
I DANCE: out of control. Only when I'm alone, really excited, or with someone/someones that I am completely comfortable with. heh. :)
I SING: a lot. Especially when I'm home alone and the music is loud. That's the second best time to do it. But it will never beat when I'm in the car with Lauren and our screams somehow always manage to harmonize with other.
I CRY: a lot more than I used to.
I DO NOT ALWAYS: appreciate things as much as I should.
I WRITE: when I can't think of any other way to express myself about something.
I WIN: always. ;)
I CONFUSE: feelings sometimes. Like, I'll be really angry and start to cry. Or I'll be real sad and end up taking it out on someone else in the form of anger/annoyance.
I LISTEN: to music... all the time.
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: on the computer or in my room if I'm home (which i'm usually not.) In any case... my cell phone is never off. :)
I AM HAPPY ABOUT: DRIVING!
I AM SAD ABOUT: The upcoming change that i'm gonna once again go through.
I SHOULD: sleep more. It's really getting unhealthy.

So there you go... that's me in a nutshell of many many questions.

Nothing but the truth.

I'll never hesitate to wrap my arms around you.
Your cheek on my forehead. We fit so well.
And to feel your hands on my shoulder-- as though you've always cared-- is the greatest feeling in the world.
Hold me close again.
and smile.
This moment will be captured forever.
There is so much I want to say.



I've never stopped loving you.

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH