I'm doubting one and hoping for the other.

"Check your pulse, its proof that you're not listening to the call your life's been issuing you."

I'm trying to listen. My pulse tells me that maybe I was born to be confused. I think I'll figure it out eventually.

Hey you. We're traveling a similar path now. You've been on my mind since you left. I'm not sure why. Maybe it was because of the way you hugged me ((or I hugged you, I'm not really sure which it was)) before you left. Or the fact that the last thing you said before I shut my door was, "I'll miss you" with that adorable little look you have. I will miss you, too. Well actually, I miss you already. We should have spent more time together in these past couple months. I think we both know that. It's okay though because we are friends now. Remember that text I sent you? Let's be friends forever. I know how to make you smile. :) but YOU are amazing.

The thing is, I'm confused about the way that I feel about you. Everything in the letter was absolutely true, and more likely than not, it still is. But it's just different with you. I can imagine being your best friend forever, and I can imagine marrying you. I don't know if that is normal.

It's just the way that you think sometimes that catches me off guard and makes me wonder. You are what I was looking for at one point in my life. I started to wonder if what I was looking for really existed in my generation because I kept running into wrong turns and bad decisions. Then you came along and you are just so nice. I don't know how else to say it. You think the way that I try to think. I try so hard and it just comes naturally for you. It is so refreshing to talk to someone who understands what I am trying to do with my life. "When you want something, the universe conspires to help you. So, continue to put out positive thoughts and energy and you will achieve your goals." That is the mindset. That is what I was looking for. That is you.

We have disagreed and argued and had some pretty intense conversations, but nothing ever changed the way that I felt about who you are. You are an incredible person. As much as you used to frustrate me because of how damn stubborn you are about the way you feel about certain things, I always looked forward to talking to you.

There is one other thing. I could never imagine disappointing you. It's not because I would be worried though. It's because I would never want to. I can not imagine ever having a reason to. You're fulfilling.

That's why I am confused. Because it has been almost a year and a half now and you are just as wonderful as you were the day we met.

AND, we are traveling a similar path now. We both made a sharp right turn. We made them at different times, but that is not what matters. Because we both made it very clear to each other that we would end up on the same path together again. We will both make it to the end. I'm looking forward to making it to the end with you. We started together and, unlike most other people, we can end together. Please come back to the path with me.

I think you're incredible. You think I'm amazing. Let's be friends forever.