"The word love appeared 35 times."

That is simply incredible.

I was so overcome with emotion at how lucky I am.
...I think that's what it was.

It's overwhelming sometimes and that just happened to be one of those times.
Overwhelming in the greatest sense of the word.

It just felt so good. Everyone together, everyone feeling the same thing.
I can't help but smile when I hear how much we love each other. ((and cry, apparently.))



Merry Christmas, everyone.
I must say, this was the best one yet.

He's got it all figured out. ((I think.))
I know that sometimes I don't even believe that, but as of right now it's a comforting thought.

Don't stress, my loves. You all sound so sad. so confused. or hurt. or broken. ...hopeless, even.
I don't understand it, really.
Well, I guess I do.

We all have our troubles, you know.
Know what my favorite part is though? When other people understand. It happens to everyone.
You make it sound like you're so alone. You're not alone.

Love is all around. Funny thing is, I am sure that we all know that. ...not a doubt in my mind.
We see it everyday; all of us. The hugs and kisses-- and I don't mean the "in love" kind... I mean just the way we are. Lately, I've come to realize that we've got a love like no other. It's pretty incredible.
Everyone around us sees it, too.

Sure, we all have emotions; I understand that.
But I want to see real smiles. I want to see the kind that people believe. The contagious kind.
I know we all have it in us. I've seen them before.

We all love life-- Don't act like I'm wrong.

Funny, funny, funny... the drama is funny. You may notice, I laugh more now at things that I used to get mad at. It's a conscious decision, the laughter. I'm sick of getting so worked up over unnecessary things.
Hate is a strong word, but in that moment, I was laughing. Because in some completely distorted way, it brought us together. Think about it-- think about sitting in the kitchen, or when you told me in the bathroom, or talking in the car. Think about how you felt... now, think about how I felt.
...It was the same.
We felt the same. Anger, disgust... shock, even. But somehow behind all that negativity, there was love and unity and friendships like no other.
Understand? No matter what happens or what we talk about or how angry we get at everything else; we have eachother.
We all have eachother.
Isn't that comforting? I think it is. It just makes me feel so good.

So guys, Smile the real kind today.

because...
I love you.

"Alright well, I'm leaving because everyone is in love."
sweet...

... I hate that.

My November. My December.

I'm not worrying anymore. My drama is... well, it's not. I'm done with all that. and I can avoid it, too. I'm doing well so far.
I just like feeling like this. and I never want to feel like I did before again. never never again, please.
So, if I don't obsess and I don't overanalyze, I'm all set. It's good.
I don't question my feelings anymore, or try to talk myself out of anything.
It's funny because now I look back and wonder why I ever did it in the first place.

Live life to the fullest.

Appreciate every moment... every thought... every memory.
I'm done with the drama. Done with the stress. I just want to sit back and appreciate. I want to wait and watch the future unfold.
...and smile.
because I'm happy.

Everything is okay. :)